Monday Blues

Mondays are by far my longest days. They start around 7am and end around midnight. And somewhere in the middle of it I spend about 14 of those 17hours at school. This means that I only get to see my Little Man when I get him ready to leave with his grandma and won't see him again until Tuesday afternoon. Yesterday, Oct. 15th was by far one of the longest Mondays I have had so far. I slept poorly and was up earlier then usual, the Little Man doesn't realize that waking up in the middle of the night for an hour long conversation is optional and not mandatory. Needles to say he want back to bed and I barely closed my eyes when I was back up at 6:30am. After such a start things just felt like they were running on slow-mo. I had two three hour breaks. My 6pm class just wasn't working out and I didn't get home until after 10pm. And what made it hard was the fact that it was raining and so dark out. But even with all that going on, the hardest part was knowing I was coming  home and I wouldn't be able to kiss my Baby goodnight or hear his steady breathing as he slept. And after a long ass day, it bums me out. It's times like these that make me question if my going back to school is worth it. Did I make the right choice? Are the sacrifices worth the efforts I'm making? Is missing out time with my 2year old worth getting my degree? And yes I realize it's silly and maybe slightly foolish to still question myself after almost a year of being back in school, but somedays, I just can't help it. 
Then, this morning while fixing my hair and putting on my face, who walks into the bathroom? My Angel, and he throws himself into my arms and we just hug and hug and hug some more. I could have stayed in that moment forever, but he wanted down and out. Which was alright with me. His grandma must have felt how much I missed him and brought him over for a quick hello before I went back to school today. It was one of the best starts to a day I've had and I am looking forward to when I get home this afternoon and get to hug him until he says "let go." lol
So in the end, the sacrifices I am making are more than worth it if it means that this little guy will have a good and secure future.